i want to stay in this world.
Monday, March 16, 2009
i wish he'd told me sooner
maybe then my heart wouldn't ache
it would be wrong to say i didn't suspect it
but i couldn't hope for it to be true
i guess the heart always knows the truth
i made many mistakes along the way but i'm sure i could've been much worse if i didn't hold a sense of self. Ah, how i wish i hadn't gotten so close to Matt, but still i don't regret it. i regret,,
i have some regrets, that i didn't do things right on the first try, but i guess in not a perfect being.
although,,,,,, perfect is truly rather subjective. particularly for them. i could NOT possiblY ever decipher what in the hell it means to have a perfect record.
even perfect beings make mistakes.
maybe that means i'm perfect after all.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Saturday, January 31, 2009
i don’t even know how i feel about this, it broke and it feels like i’ve lived through this all before, i feel like i was able to save it,, before ?
i should’ve been able to save it
and now i’m in this place, this neverzone, that’s what they called this place, they scare me but mostly, they’re so annoying, im avidly avoiding them, why did they have to laugh at me like that… seesh
all i got from their dumb speech is that i only have this weird wall to work with, or,,