Monday, March 16, 2009

entry number 29

i wish he'd told me sooner

maybe then my heart wouldn't ache

it would be wrong to say i didn't suspect it

but i couldn't hope for it to be true

i guess the heart always knows the truth

i made many mistakes along the way but i'm sure i could've been much worse if i didn't hold a sense of self. Ah, how i wish i hadn't gotten so close to Matt, but still i don't regret it. i regret,,

i have some regrets, that i didn't do things right on the first try, but i guess in not a perfect being.

although,,,,,, perfect is truly rather subjective. particularly for them. i could NOT possiblY ever decipher what in the hell it means to have a perfect record. 

even perfect beings make mistakes.

maybe that means i'm perfect after all.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

entry number 27

Matti… lied to me ?

his tattoo…

i cried a lot last night

but i was happy

Friday, February 20, 2009

entry number 26

that was such an ordeal, and for what? i went to buy another gadget, even tho the person in the store seemed confused about me, she said i’d never been there before ? she sold me my last gadget ?  the one i broke ?  this one doesn’t even look the same

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

entry number 25

i found a way to go back.

but it makes me feel so uneasy, it makes everything seem uncanny

i’m scared

it’s as if nothing happened.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

entry number 24

it broke.


i don’t even know how i feel about this, it broke and it feels like i’ve lived through this all before, i feel like i was able to save it,,   before ?

i should’ve been able to save it

again ?

and now i’m in this place, this neverzone, that’s what they called this place, they scare me but mostly, they’re so annoying, im avidly avoiding them, why did they have to laugh at me like that… seesh

all i got from their dumb speech is that i only have this weird wall to work with, or,,

the hallways.